These Words Speak To Me

Kelle Hampton is one of my favorite bloggers. I actually had no idea who she was until one my friends (Melissa I think) posted a FB link to her blog. Her 2nd daughter was born with Down Syndrome and she had no idea until delivery.

Today she said the words that my heart have felt ever since my first pregnancy complication (subchorionic hematoma) and I felt it again at our 20week appt when we found out Hendrix had a CCAM on his right lung....and kept feeling this all throughout the many high risk dr appts and pediatric surgeon appts. I still thank God for healing my sweet boy and surgery was never needed.

RAMBLING SORRY!!

So here is what she said today:"Nella had her four month appointment yesterday.And, amid most of the time where I honestly forget she's different, I am reminded every once and awhile. Like getting ready to go to the doctor and feeling a little flutter inside. Like what if they tell me something. Like what if they rock my world again. Like what if one of those "increased likelihoods" that happen to attach themselves to that sweet little chromosome comes true. But, here's the thing. Once you become a parent...once you start feeling a little funny and you buy that pregnancy test...once you see a pink plus sign...once you know it's not just you anymore...well, you automatically carry around, for the rest of your life, an increased likelihood. To have your heart broken. And it's a constant fear that we struggle to put to rest.And we can choose to be afraid or we can choose to live. And I choose to live. Because an "increased likelihood of having your heart broken" also carries with it an increased likelihood to find yourself the happiest you've ever been in life."

If that doesn't put things into perspective I don't know what does. Her attitude SINGS TO ME!!!

Thank you. Ramble over.

Coming to an End

This morning may have been H's last time to nurse. It's getting less and less common. I cherished every moment. I sat up in bed (as opposed to my laying-down-half-asleep position) and I held his long body that no longer fits in my cradled arms. Here lately he has only been nursing a few minutes on each side, but this morning was different. It was as if he was cherishing it too. While nursing he signed dad, so I said "dad" followed by "mom". He stopped nursing just long enough to say "mama" which brought me to tears because he very rarely says mama. I made sure to sing him the "mommy's milk is so good" little jingle I made up and have been singing him since the very beginning. I also tickled him just to see his silly I'm-trying-so-hard-not-to-laugh-while-nursing face he does that I adore so much. Ahhh...I love this kid. A lot.

Updates

So my two prayer requests have wonderful updates:
Lizzie is home from the hospital and recovery is going slow and steady. http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/elizabethschemerhorn

Maxwell is proving to be a tough little boy and is growing stronger every day! His mommy and daddy get to hold him more now which was a big prayer I've been praying. http://maxwellallenparker.blogspot.com/

As for my sweet Hendrix- HE WALKS, HE RUNS, he falls down, HE GETS BACK UP! I had no idea how cute he would be as a true toddler. He looks like a drunk midget. Here is a video that includes most of his new tricks.

Rainy Day Blues and Prayer Requests

So after a week of B-E-A-UTIFUL weather, it rained all day yesterday. The morning at our house wasn't so bad. David made breakfast, we played, had bathtime, played more....then the fun ran out. We sat and wondered..what do we normally do on days we can't go outside? We have been outside for at least an hour every day this week, and now to be shut indoors AGH! After listening to Hendrix whine for 30 minutes straight we decided we HAD to get out of the house. For lack of a better idea, we headed to the mall. When we couldn't put up with the crazy middle and high schoolers running around like idiots, we went and grabbed dinner at Potbelly's..YUM!


Movie Review- On the way home we stopped by Redbox and grabbed The Hangover. I was really excited to watch it after EVERYONE said it was just hysterically funny. Ehh..I was disappointed. Don't get me wrong it was funny, but overall just a good movie, nothing great by any means.

Prayer Request- There are two babies on my mind constantly the past week or more, Lizzie and Maxwell. Please say a prayer for them.

Maxwell is a little boy that belongs to a friend of a friend. He was born 16 weeks premature and is dealing with all the hardships of a micro preemie.

Lizzie is the little girl of one of my January Mama friends. She was diagnosed with pneumonia with pleural effusion. She was in critical condition (now stable) in the hospital for 2 weeks now. She has had her ups and downs and still continues to fight.

!!First Steps!!

Hendrix took his first steps Tuesday at 14.5 months old! I emailed David the video and he left work early to come and see for himself!

On a slightly different note, Hendrix will be getting ear tubes put in on Tuesday the 20th. The ENT said that Hendrix has so much fluid in there that he couldn't even move his eardrum during the exam. Hopefully after the surgery (outpatient) his balance will be 100% and he will be running by next weekend.

I Should Have Known Better

So in an attempt to get Hendrix to eat more I thought I'd do what my cool mama friend Katie does and sit out some snacks for H to graze on while playing. I put the crazy dogs up, got out some snacks, put them in a tupperware container, and set them down. Hendrix crawled over, ate a piece of cheese and then proceeded to dump everything out. What? Five second rule you say? Oh no, my kitchen floor has a zero second rule. I Should Have Known Better.

A Man on the Move!

Hendrix has been a busy man lately...nope still not walking. He now has learned how to climb up slides, and how to skateboard. Who needs to walk when you've got a set of wheels? Have fun watching these: